October 5th is the day it all begins. I go in for my first chemo treatment.
Am I ready? No. It freaks me out.
Can you really be ready for something like this? I would think NO. I don’t know what to expect and I hate the unknown. I am nervous and scared. I like to have control over situations and have a game plan. I am a planner and this situation is not easy to plan out. If I could plan it, this would not have happened.
Symptoms: I am so nervous to see what will happen. How will my body handle the chemo? Am I going to be completely out of it? Will I be sick to my stomach all the time? Can I get back into a normal routine after recovery? I just don’t know…everyone is so different with how their bodies handle the chemo.
Most of all, I don’t have my dad by my side. I have AMAZING support from family and friends that I love dearly, but being a female sometimes all you want is your “daddy” to tell you everything is going to be okay. It will be okay! I am blessed to be surrounded by incredible people who have supported and encouraged me through the good times and the bad. That is what will keep me pushing forward.
Stay tuned for next week…