Just when you think life is getting so good, it stops you in your tracks and all you can think is, “God stop the madness”.
My name is Audrey and I have cancer. Such a scary 6 letter word. A word that hits so many lives.
August 17th was the start of the battle ahead. A battle that will be conquered and a battle that I will win. I was diagnosed with colon cancer. I went into the doctors August 17th being told I will need to have emergency surgery to remove my appendix, little did I know it was cancer. What got me to go into the doctors was horrible abdominal pain; mostly to my right side. I thought it was a bladder infection, but the doctor said it was my appendix. After 4 hours, surgery was over and some time into my recovery my dad got the courage to let me know they found a tumor that was actually causing the problem. At that moment, all I could do was cry. I remember asking my dad to stop talking. I just could not believe it and I did not want to hear it. I would say I went into denial. I thought to myself…Why? Why me? Why couldn’t it just be my appendix.
I thought to myself, is this God’s plan. Is He wanting me to go through this now so I NEVER have to go through it again. I hope so…
If that was not worse enough, another curve ball was served to my family and I. My dad who is my rock and my best friend left us unexpectedly on September 3rd. My dad was an AMAZING father, husband, friend, grandpa, and all of the above. He knew how to cheer you up and was so full of energy and life. My heart is broken. My dad was supposed to be by my side every step of the way. He was someone I always turned to when I needed to vent or needing advise or just needed to talk. My dad and I had a very special father-daughter relationship. Even though he will not be with me at every chemo treatment physically, I know he will be in my heart cheering me on every step of the way.
This blog is my public diary throughout my journey ahead. My diary that I will be sharing the good, the bad, and the ugly. If there is anything specific you want to know, just ask. Chemo will be starting for me at the end of the month and I will post as frequently as I can. I have no idea what to expect and I have no idea what direction this blog will go. It will be my journey throughout this next 6 months as I conquer this cancer. I am scared, nervous, anxious, but I know I got this and I know this cancer is going down.
Oh and I cannot forget…I named my port thanks to my sister for coming up with the name. I was thinking, the word “port” is such a boring word and if it is going to be apart of me for the next several months, it should have a name. So leave it up to my sister to figure out a name for it. My port’s name is Betty! Betty is sassy and does not allow anything to come in the way of conquering this cancer. I got this, we got this!
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