Cancer SUCKS guys. It is no walk in the park.
With battling cancer, you gotta take it one step at a time. Day by day! Don’t over do it is what I keep reminding myself.
I am finally through the half way mark and man it does not get easier. I had a feeling this second half of chemo treatments would be more difficult than the first half. Chemo #7 was Thursday, Jan. 18th. It hit me hard. Saturday/Sunday I was so fatigued, nauseous, and my neuropathy kicked in more. I honestly felt like I was hit by a semi truck. That Saturday, I took a 4 hour nap. Monday came around and I felt better. I had more energy so I decided to blow the driveway from the wind storm we had. It was nice to get some fresh air and move those muscles. I got winded a couple of times and had to take breaks, but I got it done and it felt good. But man, I was tired after.
When going through any heartache, (cancer, a breakup, a loss of a loved one) it’s always best to stay positive. But, that’s easier said than done sometimes. I’ve always been a positive person and always saw the glass half full. At the same time, I am human and I have my days. Just like any of us and that’s okay. When I have my days where I’m sad, frustrated, annoyed, it is best to let your feelings out. Talk about it with someone. Never bottle it up (I tend to do this). I had a moment on Sunday, Jan. 21st with my bonus mom. I just started crying. I was annoyed that I have cancer and I was frustrated that in a way I’ve had to somewhat put my life on hold. It is not far. Having cancer is a huge change of life plus loosing my dad at the start of the battle, not easy. It felt good to get those tears out though. LET IT OUT! At the end of the day, I got this and I will walk away from this as a winner. Just gotta get through the hurdle.
On the bright side, I went to work for two days. I’ve been away for the past 2.5 months. With my neutrophils in a good place and them staying in a good place, my doctor gave me the okay that I can go back to work. Of course, I have to take it easy and not over do it. Plus, stay away from anyone sick. It felt good to get somewhat back in the swing of things. Seeing everyone was great and a good change of scenery. The second day I did not last the whole day. By 2pm I started to hit a wall and I went home. Once I got home I hit the couch and fell right asleep. I was drained emotionally and physically. Probably was in bed by 7:30 and slept until 9ish the next day. Clearly I needed the sleep.
Chemo #8 is this Thursday, Feb. 1st. I got this!!! 5 more chemo treatments. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It reminds me my dad’s birthday is the 7th. 😦 I am missing him like crazy and I’ll make sure to do something special on that day.
Everyone have a wonderful week! #bebrave